I saw you on a Sunday, it has been one very long year

I felt confused

I was so happy and yet so sad at the same time

That night you held me close, your arms pulling me close

It felt so very nice

Sometimes, I can still feel your warmth around me

Yet now…I sit alone

I am so confused

I have not seen or heard from you…nothing

My heart is breaking

It took you only four empty days to shatter my hopes and dreams

Yet…I am still so confused

You gave me one night…one beautiful night

You showed me kindness I had never felt before

Then you let me slip right threw your fingers…why?

Confused

What are you afraid of…me?

You said you would be there for me…liar…I am alone

Confused

I am back to where I was, back to nothingness

A nobody

Yet I am still confused…you used my disability against me

I wish you could feel it, just the once

The hurt…the solitude…the pain

I feel so humiliated

How could you lie to me…How?

I heard the rumors; there is another you hold close to you now

Confused

Are you not ashamed…You should be?

Why can you not face me, I am at least trying to find the words to say

I now seek Salvation

I must leave this place before it destroys me…Confused.

                                                   I still want the one guy who broke my heart!! confused......??